I’ve spent almost the entire day trying to upgrade Symantec Antivirus 9.0 to 10.0 on one of our servers at work. You see, when I’m not a reformed Christian aviator, I’m a server and network geek. I spent the whole day getting nowhere. Three installs with subtle differences in each approach yielded nothing.
Some of my co-workers were pretty annoying today too. Nobody wanting to step up to the plate and take responsibility for a system problem that’s completely unrelated to anything I do. So I stepped up, made a couple of phone calls that anyone could have made and found the problem in short order — a server problem at another site.
Finally this fancy new VPN appliance we bought for a branch office isn’t working as well as I’d hoped. It requires user intervention to establish the connection with the main site. It needs to be automatic. It does not appear to work automatically. Frustrating.
So… why am I so happy? I am, I really am. Not like Paxil happy, just content, not worried, going with the flow, cool. I have a feeling my God is playing a big part in this. If I rest in Him and allow Him to have control of my life things just seem to work out. It really frustrates the people around me.
“How can you be so relaxed??” they demand to know. “What do you mean you just ‘figured it out’? How??”
I’ve found that God even helps me with my little petty mundane problems if I just lift them up to Him. God has ordered me to work. So I work. If I work as if working for Him (which admittedly I don’t always do) He helps me. He helps me because I am doing his will. I’m not out there scouring the streets for converts or feeding thousands of people. I just try to perform my own quiet service to Him and those He has created. Perhaps they will see me and jealously wish to have what I have. Perhaps they will ask and I will tell them. If it is God’s will, they will believe and be my companions forever.
It could happen.
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Keep up the great work on your blog. Best wishes WaltDe